Hi there

Just started college...how exciting. Of course I feel like I have to say....have you thought about talking to a therapist or school counselor about your feelings? That helps many people.

Sometimes a dull or flat feeling is from depression. One therapist told me that depression can be from masked anger. Anger from issues or problems stuffed down and not being dealt with.

You mentioned low self esteem. Are you taking good care of yourself? "Self care" is extremely important. You also mentioned going out a lot. Are you going out too much? Are you getting caught up in risky behaviors? If you were raised in home where you were kept at home a lot, you might be going overboard. Just asking