The garbage I've been writing about has nothing to do with sobriety. I'm sorry I wasted time on this thread writing of my personal issues. Fact is, I've gone missing from AA for months before & never had the desire to drink. I'm convinced that's because I've been to so many meetings over the years. If nothing else, Step One saves my arse: "We admitted we were powerless over alcohol - That our lives had become unmanageable." When I drink, I drink too much & do stupid shite...Case closed.