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Originally Posted by golden_eve
My self esteem right now is really low. I don't feel good about myself at all. I don't like aspects of myself, and I see behaviors in myself that I don't like. Last night someone told me I was annoying them, and that hurt. I am so sensitive, and I felt like he doesn't like me.
I've heard that this person thinks I am all "drama", and I wonder if I am. I have certainly been involved in or have attracted drama over the years, but I try to steer clear of it even though I will speak my mind with people. So I told this person what i had heard, and he got annoyed with me and told me so.
Maybe I just don't belong on this planet anymore. I want to just die and hide away from the world, curl up in a ball and never come out.
And I have a big interview Tuesday with ten people and have no idea how to even prepare or how I will ever get through it. I feel overwhelmed by it and wish I could cancel or reschedule it. I wish I had more confidence in my abilities, but I am also struggling in my career right now. I have a hard job and it's really complex. I don't know how I will get through this interview or pretend that I am confident when I'm not. I need help....
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Please DO NOT cancel your appointment. This an opportunity that is given to you and i hope you can put all the effort to take advantage of this opportunity.
I know how you feel; however as you well know (and we must all accept) that depression brings drama. We want it or not to accept, there is a dramatic jungle in our minds and it our biggest challenge to navigate through life while there is a big dramatic playing in our heads.
As tough as it sounds, people do not want to deal with drama, be it their own or someone else's. It is very difficult.
On the other hand, I find it hurtful and not caring when people tell a depressed person that she is "drama". Thank you for pointing out the obvious. I already know that! So, please try to ignore what that person says. So what if you are drama? Life is dramatic and you already know that.
I think the biggest challenge is to deal with the drama in our heads, which usually benefits others around us.