I can see how research and realizations can make you feel unsafe.
I am sorry you are going through this, jacky.
I, too, feel you are safe from the rich and "powerful" people involved in crimes against children, as you don't pose a huge threat to them or to their lifestyle.
You are likely quite skilled at feeling upset inside, while presenting as calm and collected, as you did with your grandmother.
How are you feeling otherwise?
I am concerned about you and the course BP may be taking in your life right now, while trusting you will take good care of yourself.

WC