I've kept trying to figure out what to study/where I want to work for so long it's ridiculous.. Now I've realized my problem isn't not knowing what to study, it's not having the courage to do what I need to do!

I have no courage to be with people.. I'm so scared of embarrassing myself, of people finding out I'm really worth nothing.. But that isn't true!! I thought it was because my dad didn't love me.. But I could've been anyone, any child, and he still wouldn't have been able to - it wasn't about me, it was about him..

I am worth something.. So I can let people see me.. What's more, I can show up and be seen whether people like it or not.. I'd NEVER intentionally hurt anyone.. So even if some people don't like me, I'm still worthy - it's not dependent on anyone else accepting me.. I'm worthy just because I was born, just because I'm alive Such a relief realizing this..