I feel so very low and depressed.I have chronic physical illnesses as well as mental illness,schizoaffective disorder and PTSD.I am on a waiting list for one to one CBT which I am due to start in November 2017.

I struggle to get through each day looking after myself and my home.I need to be on top of my personal care,if I get physically run down my mental health declines and I have in the past gone into psychosis when that happens.

I suffered 35 years of abuse from my narcissist sister,I cut her out of my life three years ago but she kept getting into my house without my knowledge using spare keys.I changed the locks but worry that when I forget to lock the inside patio door lock when I go out she gets in the back with old set of keys.I think things are being moved about and always worry she has cracked the keysafe code and is letting herself in again.She tried to drive me to suicde she wanted me literally dead she caused me a lot of harm through my mental health deliberately causing arguments to make me ill and breaking things in my house so I couldn't manage.She is so very violent and hates me intensely/This situation has caused me a lot of distress and low moods, fear and security worries.The police filed a domestic violence report on her.

Being alone makes me very unhappy,I can't seem to find people who will care about me...I meet people and we chat...but without support I find it very hard to socialise...so it gets very lonely.

I need people as I am someone that likes people and wants to share with others...people mean more to me than material things.

I don't know how to handle my low feelings,some days I get moods that are unbearable,like wanting to cry and being angry and depressed all at once.

If anyone can relate please reply to me I can do with some input from someone who understands.