Oh my dear, you are indeed going through some things. I have severe depression and co-morbidity issues as well. I spend most of my time praying that one of my health issues will just take me out of this fruitless race. I have been diagnosed with no certainty as being bipolar, schizoeffective, PTSD, BPD, and just yesterday from the lips of my very own primary care doctor, I am currently suffering from very intense anxiety/panic attacks. I'm afraid I have no advice other that to "BE GOOD TO YOU". Can't no one love us the way that we can and no one will care for us as well as we do, so you have to try. Fight like hell through this and you will make it, I tell myself that this too shall pass, these episodes don't last forever, sometimes longer than I want them to but still not forever. Put on a good movies that will make you laugh til you cry down your legs, eat a light and healthy meal, listen to good happy music that won't spark bad memories etc., exercise your limbs if possible, even while sitting, get that blood circulating, write your feelings down and get that good cry out, take your meds, wash your face and get some good old fashion sleep/rest. If you have a hobby, art, crafts, do some of that for short periods or get lost in them, redirect your mind and your heart will follow.

I pray something I said has lifted your spirits even if just for a moment. I wish I were near you this very moment, cause if I were, I would give you a good old fashion, love you neighbor hug.... as a matter of fact, take your right hand and place it on your left shoulder, okay, now take your left hand and place it on your right shoulder... now squeeze tight....that's a big ole hug from all of us here at PC. We care about you and want you to know that you are not alone!

Be well, take care and remember...."BE GOOD TO YOU"!