The first part of the day wasn't bad, but it became more and more overwhelming as time went on. There's a lot of things that I can't control, and I wish I'd just accept it already, but my mind likes to wander and revisiting the same old topics over and over. I wish I was able to let things go, but apparently, I'm just not wired in that way. There's positive things I should be focused on, but my mind drifts to whatever is negative. My self-esteem is horrible lately.

My memory is so bad when it comes to taking these meds at different times. I get afraid especially of accidentally doubling up my Lamictal. I'm on 400 mg daily already, with all the other meds. I really need to get better organized with my pills.