I don't know how I'm feeling. The doctor is going to ask me that tomorrow but I don't know what to say. Am I depressed? I know I'm not hypo. Is this bipolar/whatever depression or is this situational due to my job situation? Maybe this is normal? I don't know I feel below bar. I think.

I don't take the meds I'm UP UP UP. I feel maybe a little below normal maybe it's just something I have to deal with not medication related.

The delusions aren't so bad now I'm still not using nail polish or hair dye and I feel a bit paranoia but not so bad.

So maybe it's working? Maybe I need a higher dose? Maybe I need more time? Maybe I need a different med...? I don't know.