I am so sorry that what you feared happened! Sometimes our anxiety and depression is based on reality.

It's OK to feel bad. It's OK to await the results of the other test but in the meantime, you must figure out a backup plan. I do not know what is available where you are but sometimes you have to be open to exploring things you haven't previously considered. For instance, in the US, I think there is a shortage of workers for skilled jobs like electrician, plumbing, heating and air conditioning work. For many of these skilled jobs, you don't pass a test, instead you do an apprenticeship. Even if jobs like this are not your dream job, if it is all available to you, you should take it if only to accumulate some money to use towards other goals. Also, when you work at a job, sometimes when you talk to other people you learn about other avenues to make money that you would not otherwise be exposed to. Many, many people have a dream job that they are pursuing (acting comes to mind) that does not bring in enough money so they do whatever is available in the meantime including waiting tables at restaurants.

Again, I am sorry this happened to you. Are you thinking about your backup plan? One of the best ways to feel less misery is to make yourself busy with activities so you are not living in your head as much.......