You say you don't want to talk about it...as I have felt this way before...there are a few things I take comfort in....the biggest one...is thank the heavens nothing stays the same...especially my feelings..they are often all over the place...sometimes from second to second....so I KNOW I won't keep feeling that way....things change..constantly....and if I try and put my awareness into the exact moment I am in....what is in front of me....and not think back on the past moments.....if I do....slip back thinking of moments that have passed....if I am paying attention....I will come back to the moment ...I am in.....I think of that as center....sometimes it feels like I need to remind myself to come back to center...more times than I think I can count...after a while it helps...or I go read a book...some frothy thing it doesn't matter if I remember one word of it later.......!....

I worry when I respond and get so long winded...that I am annoying...yet I want to help...not knowing how...I just start filling up the screen...in the hopes that it might be something that could help...or just the thought that even from a distance....you aren't by yourself...

I most certainly hope you feel better soon....