it's impossible to pick just 1 time.

I think that anything that gets so bad that it leads to suicide attempts is probably top of the list...

if I had to choose, when I came out of hospital 1 time for undereating.

being in the hospital was bad enough, I mean so many things happened in the space of my time their- but coming out the following march, and then realising, not just the damage you'd done to your body, and how little you had to live for, but also the recovery you had to follow, in order to get back to a healthy weight.

I must have sat around the house day after day just longing for death (not even music would cheer me up)

do you like to use perfume/ aftershave?

if so what one do you use?