So you don't think its a pointless conversation? What if it changes everything? What if he becomes creeped out and pulls away? If things change at all between us, I wont feel as comfortable and I'll lose trust in him.

It's weird BTW how some think coffee is friend like, LOL. people meet employees, potential employees, aquantiences etc for coffee, its a easy way to have a chat with someone not in their home, that has really confused me. I've never heard it being only a friend thing until therapy and I was on forums. weird to me

Anyway... I will see. I am still not convinced there is a real point in it. My feelings can't be real though, if it was a GENUINE belief we have a real connection and could be friends if it weren't for rules, he would feel it too... I'm sure he doesn't so it can't be real. however yes my anger and frustration and sadness are real but those are simply reactions to my uncertainty of how to process my thoughts

thanks for your input.