So I have been battling my demons at the moment with thoughts of my ex wholm I think I want back. My anxiety and depression are dragging me through the dirt. I wake up nauseous every morning and with a headache. I am Puerto Rican and my father is in Puerto Rico right now. We have not heard from him since Tuesday night. With all this going on I feel so selfish and horrible for feeling the way I do. This is making me feel worse. I feel I should just be worried about my dad and my family and friends and my beloved island of Puerto Rico and here I am being selfish and thinking how I can't do this anymore. I saw a psychologist for the first time yesterday and she wanted to admit me as inpatient. I told her all I have left is my job and I can't lose it, that would be my last straw. Instead I am being sort of watched by my sister whom is dealing with her own battles and my mom threw that in my face. The psychologist thinks I'm in crisis and made me an appt for today with a psychiatrist. I feel like I am losing my mind. I want to disappear. If my ex would take me back I would since he was basically isolating me from my family and friends anyways... now I really want that.