I am so sorry. Yes, this is a blow to your self-esteem, to fail a test, but it doesn't mean you're a loser or that you deserve to be miserable. I know it's easy to start to think that way.... that all is hopeless and lost, but it's not. I have failed in my life many times, but found other ways to succeed. It's a let down for sure, but please don't think that all hope is lost or that you cannot succeed in other ways. Wishing the best for you!!!! ((((((hugs))))))