Oh yeah and I was telling my doctor about my googling and talking with you guys and all that and he would say that I don't meet the criteria for schizophrenia, but he figures it's either bipolar with psychotic features or schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. We joked about googling skills and internet doctoring lol.

But again, he just wrote me down as 'mood disorder NYD w/ psychotic features' and it's up to when I finally see a psychiatrist to give me an official diagnosis.

I get along with my doctor. I feel comfortable talking to him and keep opening up more and more. He makes notes and we joke and he lets me read the notes.