Hello Lostbeauty

I haven't been on here for a while, but logged on today & your post is the first one I read. I cried as I read it because it describes my situation. Im afraid I have no answers - I just wanted to let you know you're not alone. There are sound points made by other members about looking after you & your children & giving yourself the chance to find happiness. I don't disagree. But I do know how impossible it feels to actually do that in real life.

I have been unhappily married for many years. I am eaten up by the guilt of the legacy that my lack of self respect & self esteem to have the balls to leave is having & will have on my children. And yet still I do nothing which creates it''s own guilt & so the cycle continues.

I hope you find the strength to do what is right for you. Everyone deserves to love & be loved.