At the closing of 2007 I sat quietly as I watched the fireworks on tv. I thought about all the things I have done in the past years. I went to dinner with my wife last night and we had a nice dinner and a great conversation about things...she is truly wonderful. The one thing that I realize about myself from all those years past is that the person that made that promise to my wife was a broken person. I was not the person that I was when I was younger, but that has changed in my life. I have taken those broken pieces of me and glued them back together. It will take a while for that glue to dry, but it is there. Now my biggest challenge is to make sure that I do not push on the outer edges of myself. I know my wife loves me and really wants me back in her life and I know that she is scared that I will go back to the way that I was before, do I blame her, no. She is a wonderful woman that put up with a lot of things from me and she feels that I have lost respect for her. The old me probably did but the new me (2008 me) realizes how much I love her. I realize how wonderful she is. I realize that she is a great mother, wife, and best friend. I guess what I am trying to say is my New Year's Resolution (one that I am going to keep) is to be the me that everyone likes and wants to be around. The old me, the one when I was younger had lots of fun and was never sad. This was the worst holiday season partly because my wife lost two very special people in her life, and I was not strong enough to be there for her to give her the shoulder that she needed to cry on. So this year is the Year of My Wife!!!!!!!!!!!

Have a great New Year!!!!!!!

Dragon