I have a psychiatric male nurse has been looking after me for the past 6 months. When I first saw him I was immediately attracted to him, he's just my type of man. Over the last few months my feelings for him have intensified and now I think I have a full blown crush on him. I love it when he comes to my home for my weekly visit and feel great for hours after he's left. Whatever I'm doing he is never far from my thoughts. He says such great things to me - he says I'm 'lovely' and 'wonderful' and I can't help but love every kind word from him. I definately have a sexual attraction towards him.
So my problem?
Well for a start he's my nurse!!
And married.
And I don't think for a second he'd be interested in me in a romantic way.....but I can't help looking too much into the things he says and does for me and secretly wish we could be together in the future when I am well again. I have been a bit flirtatious with him as I can't seem to help it, and he doesn't discourage it.
Stupid to think all this aren't I?!!!
I've tried again and again to stop thinking of him in this way as I know it will only end in tears - my tears. I just don't know what to do. I guess it will eventually fade away.....but it doesn't seem to yet. Help!!!
For those of you who don't know me, I'm a 35 year old single woman in the UK with Borderline Personality Disorder.