Sky, Fluffy, Mouse, Sunny---Thank you friends!!!! Your responses are thoughtful and thought-provoking!

Soliaree, Your quote saved me. My T always tells me to breathe and so borrowing your T was just what the doctor ordered!

Hmmmm, a stand-in T? How could that be?

OK I'm getting carried away, in serious danger of channeling Dr. Seuss.

Sunny, I am not so sure it's about an uwillingness to share positive feelings because I have shared many positive moments with T over this past year we have been together. (I finished my Masters during this time after all.) And I don't think he would push me out the door either. I think the fear is that I will push me out the door and I will think I do not need him anymore. Yes, he can hold onto the positive feelings but can I? Thanks for your feedback -- it gave me an opportunity for reflection.

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL