dear Choclate Lover, sick? you? i just don't see how...God made you just as you are for a wonderful reason! he gave you all of the gifts that he has given you and the life he has because it was his "good and perfect will for your life" this is why I tell people who ask "when does #*it stop happening"? that it does when we understandand and are able to rejoice in this truth. when we know that we posess the "pearl of great value" other things seem as insignifigant as they truly are! recovery means healing, spend a moment meditating on this, be the observer of your life, but see yourself thru Gods eyes...perfect!