For those that havent followed my posts, i was cut off from benzos suddenly by a nurse practitioner who saw sunstance abuse on my history. I dont remember how long ago that was, though, because my memory is gone. Im 24 and living with my parents again, because of my forgetfulness. I have been writing down the time and date and putting notes in a notebook. I didnt see last nights notes saying it was the 20th so i thought last night when i wrote "remember to start praying every night before bed" it was from a week ago, and i wrote it and some other things yesterday. I also have weak muscles, what feels like a constant fever, and often stare out into space or feel like im floating outside my body. My mom seriousely believes im at the memory and level of functioning of my grandpa who had a stroke and has dementia.