Thank you for reply. Very kind of you.

I checked your link and I get it. The Work, that one.

Also, I was sure I have asocial personality. But, just checking types of them I found out it is schizoid personality disorder. Reading wikipedia article on it made it clear I am one of them. Very rare type, but am.

I don't think I want to change it and I am okay with it. My fantasy world is rich enough. Also explains my "love issues". I became just ghost. Silent to the extreme. Abandonment depression, "false self"... Many things. I don't care about anything. Anymore.

I feel frozen. No emotions anymore. Silent. No will in changing it.

She is final person I lost. Now, it's only me.