I think thoughts and feelings that you should be happy because you have it better than others is based on messages that society, our parents, etc. throw at us. Suffering is suffering. The people you care for in your new job have it really bad. That doesn't negate your suffering. You're giving yourself a double whammy, feeling unhappy, and then feeling bad for being unhappy. Don't do that to yourself.
I sometimes feel happy on Meds. When I'm on the right Meds I feel somewhat normal. I know that if I don't take Meds I take the chance of being manic or psychotic, and I'd rather live with the weight than go there. Your wise to not risk that. I think depression is one of the hardest things to treat. Most of my med changes have been because of depression.
But it's worth persistence, because there are so many out there. Yes, you can feel happiness and be on Meds. And it's ok to be happy too.
I hope venting helped. Just thought I'd let you know someone was listening.
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