I'm finding right now, with my mood being rock bottom, that I can't even bring myself to masturbate. I have neither the energy or drive and everything I enjoy feels empty and pointless.

When well(er) up to daily, more often I'll skip a day or two. I don't have good memories so do use porn but hate myself for doing so, I really detest the misogyny in most porn and have been trying to make use of more ethical forms of erotica like so called feminist porn, which is actually more sexy, but there's not a lot of that and some pretends to be feminist but isn't really (it's trendy at the moment so there's some bandwagon jumping)

Would prefer a real person even to hug right now though