Starrysky, I agree, and I'm going to. In the past, I've come here when I'm too upset to see straight; today, more just for affirmation as I make this decision. Toby is on the spectrum, I didn't mention it this time because it tends to dominate the conversation. And you're right, this is not a part of the normal territory that comes with Autism. That's part of what made me realize I can't do this; really can't. I was so unsettled because he wasn't in sensory overload, he wasn't anxious, he wasn't having a meltdown. He just set out to hurt, intentionally. And Autism definitely doesn't excuse that, and I don't know how to help him overcome that kind of urge. Time to go.

I don't think I'm going to nanny anymore, either. I've applied for jobs teaching ESL online, where I can work from home, work fewer hours, and set my own schedule; much easier and less stressful while I finish school. And away from biting teeth.