Well, my prayers must have been answered, because she called me last night and said that he "could never stay with a single woman alone for the night, and he will be staying in a motel." Ah HAH! Thank God!!!

I think one of my greatest problems is that I am just too NICE. I allow people to "walk all over me." Bullies, pushy people, even and especially FRIENDS. I just allow them to make all the decisions, say whatever they want to, to me, without ever protesting. I was taught as a kid that I could never protest to ANYTHING. (Even being molested) so as an adult I rarely if ever protest, no matter what anyone is doing or saying to me!!!

This has posed many a problem in my life. I am a "pushover." And this HAS TO CHANGE. That is why I am applying for TRAUMA THERAPY. I will be evaluated for it on October 5th, at which point I am sure they will agree that I NEED it desperately. I will use this as one of the many examples in my life, that has been done of late, that proves that I need to work on building up some kind of "back bone" or defense mechanism or something. I don't know how to stand up to people. I don't know how to defend myself or to say, even ever so politely, "No." This has GOT TO change, and like yesterday.

Still, I will need to tell my boyfriend that my friend's husband will be meeting me and visiting me in my apartment. I think what I will do is to invite the BOTH of them to come visit me together. That should ease my boyfriend's mind and mine too!

I need to be more in control, and not be so controlled!!!