again i am struck by the statement; "this may prove the most essential part of the work you have to do -- to tolerate, explore, and ultimately accept that tension between becoming absolutely attached and rejecting/fleeing". not only toward our T's but toward anyone we care about - how often do we go between total attachment of someone and then the fear of either imagined or real abandonment? I am begining to see how chaos is created in my life regardless of if it was really there or not - all because that is what I am accustomed to. like he is telling you Sol, there is no real crisis right now (if I am reading correctly?) other than the fact that missing sessions and our T's IS in itself a crisis (i know all too well).
The relationships we have with Ts is a totally different thing, eh? I am finally in one (after 4) that I am not attached to in the manner that all the rest were. I did feel last time like she was attacking me, but i know when i have time to look away from it, that that is not so... it is all how my mind precieves what is happening. the question becomes how do we change the mess in our brains that allows for all that.
i may not even be making sense after 4 hours of sleep. =)
kiya