So I had a good sulk. I got my feelings hurt about a disagreement on the forum. Then, I let my feelings/emotions climb in the drivers seat and go careening down the emotional highway, taking turns too fast and doing a massive roll over where they were ejected from the drivers seat.

I view my mind/logic as the driver of my mental bus and my emotions/feelings as unruly passengers. I frequently have to pull over and yell "if you guys don't sit down and shut up, I'm gonna beat the crap out of you."

As luck would have it I had a Pdoc appointment yesterday. I was worried that maybe I'm getting manic and trampling on others in the process. She thinks I'm stable so I'm going to take her word for it.

To take my mind off things, I decided to take Myers Briggs personality test. Tested as ENTP, the "debater."

Weakness of a debater personality type:
Debaters’ capacity for debate can be a vexing one – while often appreciated when it’s called for, it can fall painfully flat when they step on others’ toes by say, openly questioning their boss in a meeting, or picking apart everything their significant other says. This is further complicated by Debaters’ unyielding honesty, as this type doesn’t mince words and cares little about being seen as sensitive or compassionate. Likeminded types get along well enough with people with the Debater personality type, but more sensitive types, and society in general, are often conflict-averse, preferring feelings, comfort, and even white lies over unpleasant truths and hard rationality.

Guilty as charged.

Then I went to a forum about personality and read a thread " you know you're an ENTP if... you start a debate with someone and can tell your winning, so you switch sides just to keep the debate going." Oh my God, I have actually done that. I love debate and love intellectual sparring. To me it's a sport. I have to keep in mind that not everyone, actually very few, like to do this.

So to end a long post. I'm sorry if I come across as uncaring or lacking compassion. I don't mean to hurt anyone, or imply that you are a wuss because you are struggling. I'm hard wired to be analytical. I challenge people with "what if "scenarios. What if...you are depressed but get out of bed anyway? What if...you feel the fear but do it anyway? I mean it as a challenge not a judgment.