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Old Sep 22, 2017, 10:42 AM
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Originally Posted by ElsaMars View Post
I'm always happy to hear and know that some people who are depressed haven't experienced the kind where you can get out of bed, speak or function. Maybe some people are stronger......I'm sure it feels nice to think so and I have no idea as I've yet to see a test to take on diagnosing strength. Years ago I went through the worst depression of my life......all previous ones.....even ones where I attempted were much less severe. My husband works in a state mental hospital with the sickest of the sick for 15 years and he said he'd never seen anyone as depressed as I was. Do I win a prize? No.....but I do have insight into how bad it can get and tell a cautionary tale to never think things couldn't get worse.......they can get worse, much worse.

But lots of people go out and fight this world with ugly symptoms, yes. Way to go to them all. And some are so sick they can't......big giant hugs to them cause they need them.
Severity is so subjective. There will never really be a way to know if I nearly always feel less depressed than most when I am down (I suspect this is true) or if I just manage to press on despite feeling as bad. I said "nearly always" because I have had rare incidents of "on the floor, hugging my knees, rocking and sobbing" depression. That's also why I think the depression I push through isn't as bad. But even at that low point, I can manage to pull myself together enough to plod along, but the vacant gaze is conspicuously downcast and fools no one.
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