Danialla,

Sometimes things do happent that seem too terrible for us to understand. Yes, that is when you pray for understanding, and to ask why, and even to tell God of your anger, and maybe to ask for help in soothing your anger. It's okay to feel anger, and even to be angry at God. Anger can motivate you, and you can harness the power of the feeling and use it for good. It only becomes a problem if you allow the anger to be used destructively.

I think that anyone who has never questioned why either has not fully lived, or maybe doesn't think, which is maybe the same thing as not fully living. I am sorry that you have so much pain, and I pray that you will be strengthened and able to bear it, and to find understanding.