I did some therapy last year,she helped a bit but I had a PTSD trigger and went into emotional crisis and she didn't have a clue how to help she just carried on as normal and this angered and upset me cos I was n emotional and psychological distress and struggling to function.To be honest she wasn't very good as a therapist so now I am wary especially as it costs me out of my own money.I am getting one to one CBT on the NHS in November,for PTSD so hopefully that will help!

I thank you all here for your replies and support it helps a lot and I do feel better slightly.

I will try to get to know the inner me and stop avoiding her and running away from my own power.I am going to stop being afraid of me and not worry about upsetting other people.