There was nothing really wrong with my family though.
I can't remember anything. I don't trust my recall or interpretations. After all, I was an isolated child with nothing to do except make up fairy tales and destroy myself.
So for example, I lied at my first appointment last week and said I have no experience with self injury, suicide, or domestic violence. What good would it do to say yes? I don't even know if yes is the correct answer. I also can't remember, I only remember that I felt horrible all the time and there was fighting which made me unhappy and then numb.
I don't remember anything. And I don't believe it when people say your feelings are valid. Because mine are foggy and just not remembered well. The small specific events that I can remember are inconsequential. So what if my mother yelled every morning and said I was fat and lifted my shirt up to look at my body and made me change about three times before school in the mornings? Not really significant.
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