well, my therapist cancelled our app yesterday - go figure! but i've been giving things more thought and I think that i'm just going to use our therapy sessions for my family/interpersonal stuff - which is something i always felt was kind of brushed to the side or reduced to 'mood' with previous therapists. i do think he is being a bit arrogant (and clearly isn't schooled in the whole 'spectrum' idea), but whatever. i also feel like he has somewhat 'pigeon-holed' me into the 'tortured artist' / 'mad genius' stereotype. on the one hand it's a nice change of pace to not have every single emotion be interpreted as a symptom of some kind, but maybe he's a bit too extreme in the other direction. like, my 'artistry' would be just fine with about 90% less anxiety thank you very much. grass is always greener i guess.

anyways, i'm kind of rambling but all of your responses really helped me out. i'm just going to continue forward with what makes sense to ME - which is that I have an anxiety disorder + a mood disorder of some kind that certain types of meds help and other types make worse. i'm glad i finally worked up the courage to give lamictal a try before he cast this doubt in me!