New to the forums, and loving this thread. The writing is evocative and has given me inspiration to note some things here after my next session.

In the meantime, I had a tough session yesterday. Not sure why?! I was in a good mood when i got there. I thought maybe t was attempting to provoke me a little, as i have a lot of anger and shame and guilt, and so much unknown or unarticulated as thought. Still just raw emotion.

I've been in therapy going 2x per week for over two years. I adore my time in session, sometimes feeling over attached to my therapist, but always feeling not quite comfy, like i am not being myself truly, and the parts i am showing are really a pose. Sure, there is a lot i am not ready to discuss. I can't even talk about these things with myself. Does that make sense?