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Originally Posted by pegasus
You want to go back to him because you think you still love him and sometimes we want to go back to what we know and think we deserve. Being with someone that manipulative is definitely not healthy for your mental health. You are not a bad person and the fact he called you a cuss word is a big indication of his own character. Listen to your friends, family and mental health team. Stay strong and start to rebuild your self esteem. If you feel you want to go back to him, remind yourself of the damage he has done to you. You deserve better!
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That's the thing Pegasus, my self-esteem is so low right now. He said all those things bit they are true... how could I do such a thing. He was so good to me, when things were good between us they were great. I am never going to find anyone like him again. So attentive so protective of me, I did feel safe. I can only see the damage now where I have never felt so depressed and down and to the point that it would be easier to not feel. I want the pain to go away. They put me on klonopin and effexor. It was that or hospital. It was staying with my sister and not alone or hospital. He has me to that point. My head is spinning.