I called my t today, something I've only done twice in a year. It took me an hour of staring at my phone to do it, but I'd already been crying for 2 hours and was so upset I just couldn't take it anymore. I was extra hesitant to call because he doesn't work today. Sometimes I also hesitate to contact him, usually via email, because I know he often doesn't respond unless I specifically ask him too and the non-response can be painful too. It took him most of the day to get back to me, but he did and he was so kind to me for the few minutes we talked and he wasn't upset that I had called. I'm so glad I reached out to him today. It made a real difference. If you're really struggling, make the effort to reach out for help.