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Originally Posted by *Laurie*
ciderguy, WTH?????? 
I've been on as many as 6 meds at a time. I hated having to be on them, but I was coming apart without meds.
I'm on 4 now. Rather low doses, and frankly I think I would do well on higher doses, but I'm so tired of being medicated. I work VERY hard at grounding myself, breathing, meditating, and so on. But sometimes...it's just all too much, having to cope. Just too much.
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Laurie (you *got* my Dr. Bronner reference?),
Oh, yes - whilst hospitalized (or otherwise institutionalized, e.g., mental ward in nursing home) I’m certain that I was on dozens of medications simultaneously; some I recall, some not. ‘Twas ECT that saved me.
Yes, three, now, here. Low dose AD, higher dose AP and alprazolam. Many, many other heart meds, insulin, etc. Throwing maximum amounts of gabapentin at neuropathy but tomorrow I start Lyrica.
Yes, tired of being medicated. I do the breathing stuff but I don’t know what meditation *means.* Contemplative prayer? I don’t, now, practice prayer. What do you meditate upon?
Too much to cope? I had an epiphany during my opioid withdrawal. A manic epiphany, yes, certainly. If I could make it through that and if I could learn to live with pain then I could recognise and (with exercises made on the fly) life through the horrors of my mind. In my mind. With minimum drugs.
That’s my WTH/WTF? answer at the moment. I’m more than my diseases and disorders. I’m more than my medications. So are we all.