I crave love right now. Unfortunately, I am in no position to date or even try to make a lot of friends right now because I am too busy.

I work and go to school and I am also going to be starting an online business. I am far too busy for dating or anything.

My cravings for human companionship have been getting so strong lately that I am contemplating just dropping out of college so that I can free up time and just focus on my online business full time while getting a part time job in fast food or retail to support myself in the meantime instead and use some my spare time to improve social skills so that I can get better at talking to women. I can't endure 4 years of this kind of responsibility when I have been struggling most of my life.

I can't continue to be lonely and miserable while I spend the time on school, especially when my goals in life are more entrepreneurial in nature and don't require a college degree to accomplish. Even now, I am doing poorly in school because I am so overwhelmed with everything emotionally. If I keep going the way I am with my grades, than I might as well just drop out anyways because I will probably get kicked out for a low GPA. Besides, I am not college material anyways because I always struggled in a classroom setting since public school because I was too emotionally unstable and had to be placed in special ed classes.

Not to mention, if I finish a 4 year degree, I will be 30-31. I have never experienced love and I don't know what it feels like to date or kiss a girl. I have had sex once and that was with a prostitute because I was desperate to feel what it's like since I couldn't get any girls to have a genuine interest in me.

I can't want 4 years. Life is too short to be this unhappy.