I'm not bipolar, or haven't been diagnosed as such. I do have a mood disorder, both depression and PMDD. I don't get it but it's like every 8-9 or 10 days, I have one or two days where I actually feel motivated and awake, but the problem is I don't sleep during that time. It's not mania. I lie in bed all night waiting to fall asleep, cuddling my dogs, bothering them while they're trying to sleep...and no sleep comes. Even now, it's 7:48 am and I'm not a wink tired.

I'm keeping a chart to see what this is or if there is a pattern. I'm not even sure if the pattern is what it is, because I haven't even been keeping my chart for a month. And the chart is only measuring the day on a scale of 1-3, with 1 being can't get out of bed, and 3 feeling normal. It's really up and down all over the place.

Can this be bipolar? I don't know. I have asked other people with bipolar and they've said it's not the same. I just want to sleep, but it seems like this cycle goes around and around to where I'm so exhausted from not sleeping, and then I don't need sleep anymore.

Anyone have any suggestions?

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