Thanks Christina and reb569. But I did go to him last night and I almost did fall back in with him. He called me all sorts of name said I wasn't in love with him to sleep with someone (which maybe he's right). He was going to forgive me and he wanted me back but I had to do everything his way so he would control everything... his words. I was suppose to just say r****** whatever you say and not hesitate. According to him also To tell my 2 sister's FU I choose r******. But I did hesitate at this and he said I made the choice clear that I didn't want him cause I should have just said I choose you r******.
It is painful. But I know I have get up and work on myself now... He destroyed my ego quite a bit.