September 2017

I am being very careful not to go outside my comfort zone so as not to trigger my PTSD...if it gets triggered I get paranoid and frightened and emotionally distressed and in psychological crisis.I am waiting for CBT therapy one to one with a therapist my turn comes up in November,meanwhile I am on the waiting list.....my doctor referred me.I am scared of exposure therapy but if it helps I will do it.They said if it doesn't work they may offer me EMDR which I had before and it did help.

Most of my memories of abuse and being driven to suicide when under psychosis I have buried and forgotten but certain triggers bring them to the surface then I go into crisis and panic mode and fail to function and look after myself.PTSD is a difficult illness and also I am depressed most of the time and if I self neglect can go into psychosis cos I also have schizoaffective disorder.It is a lot to cope with along with my physical chronic illnesses.