I went for a walk. and its very snowy here. thought the crisp air with no coat gloves hat, would help. nope. tried to sit and read. nope.......Im getting better. I just hate this overwhelming sense of will anything really get better. because right now it dont look good. I have good things that I can be happy about. but its not making me happy/ Ok im so not making sense right now. I know you care. and i appreciate that. I really do. I guess im a downer today.

Colleen