I have really crashed this week and I don't think I can do this any more. The psychiatrist started me on quetiapine and it just completely wiped me out. I missed a deadline at work so me and my colleagues all had to work late to fix it and I feel terrible about it and now they think I am just rubbish at my job.
I saw my GP and just burst in to tears, which I never do. It is the first time I have seen her as my usual GP left the practice, so she must think I am really stupid.
She was very kind though, and is going to speak to the psychiatrist about my medication as I can't carry on just trying new drugs to see if they work. None have so far - I just get horrible side effects.
GP wants to sign me off work, but I am really scared about that. I worry that I will lose my job and all my colleagues will find out about my mental illness.
I just really don't know what to do. I feel like everything is falling apart and I really don't think I can go on much longer...