Hey,our hun, no one is perfect and it is not your fault your parents loathe each other. If they can't face the truth, it should NOT ( I repeat NOT) fall on your shoulders to make them feel superior to the other. Yes, your sisters ARE important, but if you can't take care of yourself, you can't take care of them. You are wonderful I have read many many of your posts and just cause I don't reply doesn't mean, my heart is lighter by what you have said. As far as your parents hating you, I think they are putting undue pressure on you and they need help. Is there anyone you can talk to whom your parents listen to? Perhaps they can talk to your parents, separately and let them know the effect of this and if they continue...you know, paint a dismal pic and maybe get them to behave better around you and your siblings??? I hope something comes into play and helps you.

***YOU ARE NOT STUPID
***YOU ARE NOT HORRIBLE
***YOU ARE NOT BAD
***YOU ARE NOT A SCREW-UP
***YOU ARE NOT A ***** OR IDIOT
***YOUR FAMILY IS FAR FROM PERFECT

You are loved here I hope you can see that... melanie