(Ill start by saying I've come such a long way in the last 6 years since my 1st post. Thanks to those who responded!)

I have a baby who just turned 10 weeks old today and I'm a single mother with a very little support system. My support system is comprised mainly of friends and professionals. I don't communicate nor receive help from the baby's father or his family. (This warrants a completely different thread.)

As a new mom I'm about to go nuts. My son is hyperactive. The more I think about it the more I realize I've sorta known this since I had my first ultrasound - the very first thing I saw was his hands and feet squirming. That was somewhere around 9 weeks. The tech said, "you've got a bouncer..." and he couldn't have been more right. I wish I would have prepared for that.

When I say hyperactive, I mean he won't be still. He's constantly all over the place, flailing his arms and legs like he's running in the Olympics. I feel like a jungle gym. Will I ever get used to this feeling?

His moving is not the issue. My problem is that he goes from 0 to 100 in seconds. I feel like he is always angry and always fussy - here's the deal...ONLY WHEN IT PERTAINS TO FEEDING. The rest of the time he's totally chill. Couldn't be a more happy baby.

We've had quite the struggle with feeding. Originally I was BF'ing. Then we had issues with bleeding, cracking and painful nipples that I HAD to take a break. The lactation consultant told me how great his latch was and how it was fine, when it wasn't fine. That was my chance to get it right and boom ... out the window (I didn't know that though..)

Long story short we've since strictly become bottle feeding and had to change his formula about a dozen times. He is also very gassy. If he's anything like me he has a sensitive belly. I give him gripe water and gas drops as needed. I go to great lengths to minimize any excess air bubbles wherever they are.. bottles, etc. I pump his legs. I rub his belly. I burp him way longer than I'd care to. He's not colicky bc he's not crying for 3 hours straight, etc. I think the issue is that his cues confuse me. I've read books and watched videos and it's not helping me the way I thought it would.

He "nehs" when he wants to feed and suck. He feeds when he has gas, comfort feeds, to sleep, hunger, etc. I've made many attempts to soothe him and calm him when he's had, what I think is, plenty to eat. I give him the pacifier. To no avail, he just wants the bottle.

Then there's the spit up. Not the usual spit up here and there, rather the kind you get when it's oozing down the middle of your back from the hair that is drenched from the entire bottle he just spit up. Then he wants something to rinse the taste of spit up from his mouth. Poor guy.

He's also still feeding on demand and I'm desperately wanting him on a schedule because I'm returning to work soon. I can't, nor do I want to be up all night feeding. I would like to relactate...I'm working on that b it haven't started yet.

All in all, I'm exhausted. What am I doing wrong? I can't even feed him now without him screaming. We are both frustrated.

I'm not trying to be the perfect parent, just a good enough one...

Thanks for reading (and sorry for the super long post)...