Do you have good friends or family members around you to lean on and keep you company?

I find, through a tough breakup, that leaning on my friends and family helps a ton. It is hard breaking a long-term relationship off, especially when that person is your best friend, so I understand and can sympathize with your pain.

It truly is for the best though. He is married, she is pregnant, and this needs to happen. See it from that light. Also understand that by doing what you've done, it can deeply hurt another person (his wife) and their unborn child (who would resent you if he left her and the child eventually learned of this).

You have to think about the consequences of your actions when getting involved with a married man. Try to understand and see that this was a bad decision on your part, and that it truly is for the best that it ends. Try to grow from the experience, and see it as that.

He is also not such a great person to have carried on a secret affair for two years. Who knows - he may have done the same to you too, even if he had left her to be with you. Think of it that way. People who cheat like that usually cheat again. I doubt what he told you about his lack of love for her was even true. He lied to her, so he probably lied about even more to you as well.

You will be OK. There will be more love in your life down the road after you have healed. This isn't the end all to be all of your relationships. If you truly want love again in the future, you can certainly find it again. But my advice is to go for the single, available men.

Try to spend time with loved ones, heal and recover. And learn.

((((Hugs))))))