My boyfriend sent me a disturbing article at 3:30 AM about a very possible pending World War III.

The dark thoughts that have ensued for me are: well, actually, if I were blown up in a nuclear war, life would certainly be FAR easier and I really wouldn't mind.

I have had these kinds of dark thoughts before, especially when facing more difficult times, which I am right now.

No more worrying about getting work, getting money, how to live, paying the bills, my mental health conditions, medications, doctors, health insurance, let alone my family members' and friends' health. No more stress, no more worry.

Guess I am not out of my SI completely... guess I am still in a dark place.

I hope this lifts soon, but a part of me really wouldn't mind if the world got blown up. :/

Then again, this planet is so very beautiful and astounding in so many ways, with so many wonderful people in it who do so many good deeds, it would be a serious tragedy. There is the more positive side of me.

I really hope my thoughts change soon. I do want to live and experience more of life, no matter how difficult it can get. Life is so beautiful. Yes, it's hard and painful, but it is still beautiful.

Wish he hadn't sent that article!