feeling really depressed.

today is my nan's 95th birthday, and all of my family are out celebrating at a chinese place (they were allowed to take her out the nursing home for the day)

and i'm... not their

because my family don't want me their

I tried to phone the nursing home earlier to wish her a happy birthday, but was told in no polite way I had no right calling.

she has dimentia and I cann't even be with her.