I love my brother because we share a life, a history...but I have learned that since his teens years till now(he's 42 years old) I dislike him. He is an alcoholic that has put my mother and father through hell. I have a hard time coming to terms that alcholism is a disease so I struggle with my "dislike" of him. I'm trying to reconcile my feelings of love/dislike for him. These conflicting feelings really put me on an rollercoaster of alternating emotions. Can I find peace in having both these feelings towards him?